wHat????

salam...
dh lme ak x menulis kt blog nie...tp tbe2 ase nk tls psl dri sinri...kdg2 ak ase ak xknl dri sinri...ak xtau pe yg ak nk dlm idup ak ni n ak ase pe yg ak wat skrg nie cm ak pksa dri ak sini..ehm xtau cmne nk ckp n xtau nk luahkn kt spe..ak xtau knpe la ak rse makin ari makin sukar perjalan idup ak nie..cm2 mslh yg ak kne lalui..ak tau dugaan yg dtg 2 dari Allah n myb dia syg kn ak that's why dia test ak..tp kdg2 ak rse ak xckp kuat utk lalu semua dugaan Nya..dlu ak ase sonok je n hepy ngn kwn2 tp skrg...ntah r myb skrg bkn mse utk enjoy..myb skrg ak dh kne pk mse dpn ak..tp ak xtau npe ak xsonok sjk msk u..of cz sbb utama nya ak dpt kos yg ak xminat tp ak dh cbe wat yg t'bek n try accept sume yg t'jd...but it's not easy, it's hard...tp hope de sinar baru yg akn mnrangi idup ak n ak hrp ak dpt trime sume dugaan yg dtg dgn ati yg t'buka...cayok!!!!cayok!!!izie ko ley wat yg terbek tok dri kau....izie bley n take it easy same as ur name....evrything is easy in ur life...

SeLAmAt Ari iBu

BUAT IBU TERSAYANG,

Kau terlalu istimewa buatku,
jasa dan budimu membesarkanku,
membuatku berasa bertuah memilikimu....

kemesraan dan kelembutanmu
lambang tulus seorang ibu
kaulah ibu yang penyanyang
sesungguhnya kau tiada tandingan....

ketahuilah ibu,
kau ialah insan
yang amat kuhormati dan ku kagumi
kasih sayangmu yang kunikmati
amat bermakna
yang memberiku kebahagiaan
tidak terhingga....

Terima kasih ibu,
Atas segala pengorbanan,
Atas segala didikanmu
Yang memberi keyakinan
mengharungi suka duka kehidupan....

Salam sayang dari anakmu
semoga kebahagian
sentiasa menjadi milikmu

kEhiDupAn sEorAnG sTuDent

student...xkire r bdk sekolah, penuntu ipt atau seumpamanya...
sume nyer sma je blaja bila nk exam xprnah cbe untuk ingt dan applikasi kan..
ehm..itu r realiti kehidupan student de mase t'luang dok cri hiburan..
tp ble nk exam bru r terkial2 nk cr bhn rujukan...pas2 mula r xtdo mlm...
mmg kalut tol time exam xsng duduk r...time 2 bru r rse klu study awal2 mst xkalut..
tp ble msk sem bru sma gak nk tgu exam bru nk study...
nk wat cmne dh mmg tabiat so xleh nk buang r.....tp klu b'usha mst tabiat 2 leh dikurang kan..
pe yg ak ckp nie sume nyer bnr2 balaka cz ak pn student gak...
sume nyer b'dasarkan pngalam ak sinri....
so mulai saat nie ak menginagtkn dri ak dan sume student supaya jgn leka ketika waktu lapang...
biar kte b'ssh2 dahulu bersenang2 kemudian.....
enjoy2 gak study biar gempak...

Final exam....ehm...

salam...
xlme je lg ak dh nk final tp mls tol nk stdy
ehm...pe r nk jd ngan ak nie
aduh..prob tol time2 final ni cz bru t'egeh2 nk stdy
sblm nie sume benda ak take it easy je..
cmni r kehidupan ak slaloo wat koje last minit..
ak dh lme sedar klemahn diri tp xprnh b'ubh..
ntah r pe nk jd dgn idup ak t...
pd tmn2 jgn r jd cm ak
b'ubah r slagi msh smpt t menyesal...
doakn gak kejayaan ak tol final exam t..
cuak gler nk final....

Why I Reject Love.

March 16th, 2009 by blackmami

A boy says, “Women -

-tell me how is it when some one tries to care and love you -for real -when we send you flowers on your door -and share what we write just to you -does this make you feel good to belittle a man who really loves you -gives you nice things -bends over backwards to please you -

-what is wrong with being loved?

I don’t understand why you reject love when you know the thing we have here is totally real..”

Here are reason why I reject love:

1. I am evil

I am a pretty hardcore narcissist. Trust is very very important value in whatever I do in life.

For example: Being a doctor. A doctor has to trust himself that he could treat a patient with all the knowledge and skills he earned. A doctor has to trust himself that he is sure he knows what he is doing. Would you let someone who has doubt with himself to play with your life? - NO.

My point is..I need to feel comfortable saying, “I love you”. I need to feel content when I started sharing dreams and future with someone. I need reassurance not only that I am the only one, but also the words we poured onto each other will be fulfilled, at least tried.

2. I am not in a good state for a relationship

If there is no trust, there is nothing to look forward to with you. I just have to be with myself and someone else. Damn, I need good friends and my family.

3. I am recently hurt

The only answer to “Why do we hurt the most, The ones we love the most?”..

4. I didn’t like his approach

I never met a guy who is sensitive enough to know what he is supposed/should to do when rough time comes. I didn’t mean romantic guy because I believe they are all always full of bullshit.

P/S: Damn, I keep going falling into relationship with the same type of guy!!! It is hard to hit the one you exactly want, really. Looking back into my past relationships, I found they are all somewhat imperfect as an individual and yet, perfecting each other. You know what I mean?

Let say, your first bf has A criteria (eg. money) that you like, but B criteria (eg. compassion) that you wish he had. Then you guys broke up…Later on, you fell for another guy, with B criteria you like (wish your ex had), but didn’t have the A criteria that you would prefer (like your ex has)…Nobody is perfect. I think the guys would probably think the same way as I do ..

Well, I take Love-relationship seriously. I am not afraid of being lonely or being the only one who stuck in the middle of horny sex/kissing/groping/love-dialogue scene. Because Love is not those things you see outside. Its the fire inside that flames for many many years..

Only 1 out of 10 long-term relationships has the most fascinating feelings/nervous/heat-beats/shakes/butterflies-in-the-stomach towards each other like they were first met. Haih, I wish to be that 1 out of 10
Standard too high? Heh, at least I don’t wish for someone like Edward Cullen!

eRTi sAhAbAt

pe erTi sebuah persahabatan sebenarnya???
ehm..ssh nk ckp r psl sahabat nie cz kdg2 kte rse 2 r
shbt yg plg bek tp sbnr nyer dia lh yg plg durjana..huhu
ssh nk cri shbt yg sentiasa disisi x kire ssh atau sng..
tp klu nk dpt kn shbt yg bek kte kne r jd seorg shbt yg bek gak...
sbnr nyer rmai je shbt bek di sekeliling kte tp kte je yg xnmpk
cz kte slalo pndg buruk kt owg...ish3
sebenarnya dlm kehidupan kite shbt sgt penting
cz idup tnpa shbt ni ibarat idup sebatang kara..
pe yg pntg kte kne hargai shbt yg kte de skrg..
ilang seowg shbt ibarat ilang nyawa..
pe yg penting jdi lh sahabt yg sejati semoga kite akn dpt seowg sahabt yg sejati gak...

terkeNang SEBUah memori lalu,
kisah pershabatan kite bersama,
didalam 1 pngajian,
menuntul ilmu dan pengalaman,
mengingatkan ku,
pengorbanan mu,
terpahat padu dikalbuku,
bersama rakan taulan dan guru,
tawa ria mu menghiburkan ati ku,
indah nya rasa ketika itu,
terjalin ukhwah sejati,
nasihat mu sungguh,
bermakna bg ku,mengenalkan ku erti kehidupan,
susah payah kite hadapi bersama,
itulah asam garam dalam kehidupan...

k lastly terima kasih pada semua sahabt yg sudi b'sahabt dgn ak slama ni
walaupun ak bkn lh seowg sahabt yg bek...thank a lot

mAnusiA..

manusia.....
mmg lumrah manusia selalu membuat salah...
bse r mmg maksud manusia itu sendiri pelupa..
so that's why manusia slalu m'buat kesilapan yg sama...
ehm...begitu juga ak xprnh bersyukur dgn pe yg ak de skrg..
tp itu r realiti idup ak...
ak x hargai sume bnda yg de dpn mata ak..
tp ble bnda 2 dh xde dpn mata bru ak sedar bnda 2 amat bermakna dln idup ak...
tp nyesal pn xde gne nyer..
pe yg mampu ak lakukn adalah sentiasa mengingatkan diri ak n sume manusia supaya hargai setiap bnda yg de disekeliling kite cz itu r kngn yg terindh yg akan kte kng smpi ble2..